havent been blogging for some time alrdy...have been real lazy and busy to pen dwn all the past activities...there's too much to record down..

well, new year have never been the festive that i like ever since mum left 5 years ago...so the usual, i wil spend new yr at godma's place and Vday happen to fall on new yr...how sad. haa!

so B came over to my godma's place on chu er to pai nian and we went out in the evening...boring. haa!
this is the pic taken on Mich's 21th party some time ago...

and..san jie left for Perth alrdy...reali miss her alot..it's like only for a week can...and she'll be away for 4 years to pursue her dream/passion...sad:(

we are really close..many ppl mistook both of us as twins..haa but actually we are 2 years apart...arggghhhh i really miss her alot! :(

can see im really nt in the mood to blog..hhaaa! the things i blog is like totally no link can,..-.-"

i think im somehow affected coz my grandma...haiz. ppl who noe me would noe that im nt in a very gd terms with my grandma..and i should hate her to the core..but somehow, at tt moment when i was informed that she had a bad fall and had stroke AGAIN, my heart stopped.

i knew i no longer hate her, just tt i do not noe how should i talk to her, i rather avoid and run away frm it.

On chu er, she fell dwn at hm and was send to the A and E at SGH. She was unconscious when she fall and when she woke up, she could not even rmb that she fell! She only found out that she fall when she see the bruises on her arms and feet. AND! tt very big "baluku" on her head. And so, she went to have a full body check up, scans bla bla bla. She cried when the nurse draw countless times of blood frm her arm. It's very painful. Seeing her teary eyes..really make me numb. I'm literally feeling the pain tt she's suffering. For once, i realise how worried i am and how sad i can get if she were to leave me...

coz through her check up, the doctor found out that her lungs are both damaged. And who to blame? She's a heavy smoker. And it's worst when she has asthma. The doctor said that now, she's only surviving on a tube. Anytime if tt tube were to burst, she will die. This can even happen when she's sleeping means she may nt even wake up when she sleeps on a random night. i'm really scare that this will happen.

Thus, i make it a point to feel her nose every morning when i wake up. To check if she's still breathing....i really dun wan to take another blow....i noe everyone will go thru this cycle, "grow,old,sick and die".

i really jus hate it....